Trapped in my Apartment

In November 2017, I broke up with my girlfriend who I had been dating for 10 years.

In January 2019, I was contacted by someone who left Intel to work at Tenstorrent. They tried to convince me to join them at Tenstorrent. In order to convince me, they showed me a paper that Intel had published where my name appeared to have been intentionally removed. They suggested that this showed what my coworkers at Intel actually thought about me.

They offered me a job at Tenstorrent. They offered me a salary of $150,000 (CAD) a year, and equity in the company valued at $200,000 (CAD). I asked them if they were able to give me a salary of $165,000 (CAD) and equity valued at $500,000 (CAD). I did not get a clear reply.

After receiving the offer, I decided to tell my manager at Intel that they were offering me a job at Tenstorrent. I figured I would find out if they would try to convince me to stay. I talked to my manager at Intel about things I could work on in the future if I stayed, and at one point I mentioned the idea of designing a programming language. At the time, I had been writing code for DLA in a combination of OpenCL and SystemVerilog using a compiler that another team at Intel had created. I had some ideas for a custom language based on what I had learned.

After the conversation with my manager at Intel, I later talked to the person at Tenstorrent again about their job offer. Unfortunately, when I spoke to them again they told me that they had changed their mind. They told me that they felt that I did not accept top-down direction, and that they were worried that they might have to lay me off if I got a job at Tenstorrent. They told me that they thought I would be better off at Intel.

After this, and I admit my memory is a little hazy on this, but I am pretty sure that the person at Tenstorrent then specifically mentioned that one of the reasons I should stay at Intel was because I could create my own programming language at Intel. This happened to be a specific idea that I had recently discussed with my manager at Intel, making it seem possible that they had recently communicated with each other.

I later read the wikipedia article for block floating point, which was the main idea from the paper where my name was removed, and saw that the Tenstorrent chip is listed in the article as an example of a hardware implementation. This makes it seem possible that they are using the idea after hearing about it from my work on the DLA project.

The COVID-19 pandemic started at the end of 2019. I had already been spending a lot of time alone in my apartment due to being single, and the pandemic made it worse. Every minute that I was not in a video chat with someone else was a minute I was spending alone in my apartment and unable to leave. I became very anxious about my social relationships, and convincing people to want to continue socializing with me.

Office Gossip

Around October 2020, I had a conversation with my manager at Intel. He asked me about someone else on the team, and asked me if I thought the other person on the team was looking for a new job. The person they asked about was someone I knew from Newfoundland that I had helped get a job at Intel after they moved to Toronto. The question made me really uncomfortable, because the truth was that I did know that this person was looking for a new job. I tried to avoid answering the question, however I suspect he could tell that the answer was yes from my reaction and the way I tried to avoid the question.

Some time after this, my team at Intel was told that multiple senior people on the team were quitting, including my manager. It was a significant change and it was not clear how the team would be run after they were gone. I became concerned that it might be a sign that layoffs were coming soon, and the people who stayed on the team might end up laid off.

I had a chat with my manager, who was leaving Intel. He had not officially told the team what his new job would be, however he told me he was going to be opening an office in Toronto for something related to Google. He told me I could look it up on LinkedIn if I was really interested. He told me that he told his manager that he thought that the person he asked me about previously was looking for a job outside of Intel. He implied that he knew this based on my previous response when I was asked about it, and he apologized for telling his manager based on my response. He told me that he did not tell his manager my name. He told me not to worry, and suggested that the other person on the team might be given stocks, and might be treated better by his new manager. I interpreted this to be a sign that the other person was now going to be laid off as a consequence of how I responded when my manager asked if the other person was looking for a job.

These events occurred during the COVID pandemic. Before the pandemic, I had been regularly trying to organize people to have drinks after work every two weeks at one of the restaurants near the office. Once the pandemic started, this social group switched to having a social video chat every two weeks. This was personally very beneficial for me at the time, as I am single and live alone, and so during the COVID pandemic, any time I was not having a video chat with someone was time that I was spending completely alone in my apartment. It was one of the only ways to see any humans at all.

After the senior members on the team quit, others started to follow. The video chat continued however, with many of the same people in it, even though they worked at different companies. I was feeling extremely worried that I had made a comment to my manager at Intel that was going to cause the other person on the team to get laid off. I told someone about it in the video chat who was previously a manager at Intel, but had since gotten a job at a different company.

Applying for Jobs

Given that everyone else on the team appeared to be quitting, and it appeared that layoffs might be coming, I started to become worried I could be laid off as well. In addition, the other people on the team were all getting jobs at various AI startups that were opening offices in Toronto. I felt that I liked the idea of working on something interesting and potentially making a lot of money. I decided to apply for jobs at Groq, Cerebras, Untether AI, and Tenstorrent again. I received a formal job offer from Groq. This was the company where my manager from Intel had gotten a job. Multiple team members had later followed him and gotten jobs there. It seemed like a good company and I liked that I would already know people there. I accepted the offer.

Once the offer was accepted I found myself feeling extremely anxious. At Intel, my name had been removed from a paper that was published about work that I had done. I felt this was a sign that at Intel, there were people who might be trying to harm my reputation. However, at least at Intel, there were a lot of people who knew me, and were aware that I had technical skills, and so it would be more difficult for someone to harm my reputation and claim I should be laid off. I started to feel anxious changing to a new company where only a small group of people knew who I was, especially since it seemed possible that my coworkers that had moved to Groq from Intel might have a negative opinion of me, and might have a lot more influence at the new company.

I was so unsure about my decision to leave Intel, that I ended up contacting Groq and telling them that I had changed my mind about accepting the offer. However, this did not make me feel better, because I started to think about how it seemed like layoffs might be coming soon at Intel, and how a significant portion of the team had already quit. It seemed like everyone was leaving to work at an AI startup and I did not want to be left out. I then contacted Groq again, and asked them nicely if they would allow me to accept the offer again, even though I had previously changed my mind. They told me this was fine, and this time I followed through without changing my mind.

Working at Groq

Once I started at Groq, I immediately felt like it was important to make technical contributions in order to prove that I deserved to be there. The situation seemed very uncertain to me. It appeared that the others that had left Intel for Groq earlier were each given responsibility for important parts of the code, and were being treated like they were going to be promoted to be managers. It seemed like they had a better relationship with my manager, and I strongly suspected they were having conversations and not including me. This bothered me because I felt that I had more experience than those coworkers, both in terms of our time on the DLA team, and in terms of the total length of our careers.

We decided that I would work on trying to find performance optimizations in the code in general. I wanted to find places in the code where it was possible to make an optimization that would cause a large improvement in performance that could be measured, so that I could prove that I had technical skills. I made a few small changes that were reasonably good, before I found a place in the code where it seemed like I could improve performance significantly. Someone else on the team had written the initial version of some code that generated hardware instructions for one of the blocks on the chip. I noticed that the code they wrote was hard-coded to handle a few specific neural network graph patterns well, however it would produce very unoptimized code in a lot of other cases. I realized I could rewrite the code and replace it with a generic algorithm that would handle any situation and would run much faster. I quickly did this, and then showed the team when I was done. Unfortunately, while I believe I did demonstrate that I had technical skills, this was also code that someone else had been assigned ownership of and had been intending to improve themselves. I felt bad about it.

In addition to this, the person who I was concerned was going to be laid off at Intel due to the comment that I had made ended up not getting laid off. I wondered if this had anything to do with the fact that I had told the former Intel manager that I was concerned about it when I was chatting with them in the video chat.

By the time I started working at Groq, I had gotten into the habit of watching YouTube videos often. YouTube videos are good when you live alone and want social interaction and do not have other options.

At one point, around November 2021, I stated to notice that the YouTube video suggestion algorithm was suggesting videos that seemed like they were being suggested based on information that YouTube should not have. I started to think it was possible that the suggested video algorithm was being intentionally manipulated by someone who wanted me to see the specific videos that were appearing. I knew it was possible that I was wrong. However, the algorithm is hidden, and technically it is not actually possible to know for sure how it is operating when you are using YouTube. It was also technically possible that I was correct.

Eventually, after I had been thinking about this possibility for a few weeks, and seeing suggested videos that only hinted that someone might be intentionally choosing them, the suggested videos changed suddenly. It suddenly started to seem very explicit and obvious, at least to me, that the videos were being intentionally controlled. This was because I was seeing a lot of videos that had thumbnails that contained strings of text with specific messages in them. Many of the messages had a religious theme. Some of the thumbnails seemed to be telling me that I was being instructed to perform some kind of specific task. I started to become concerned that there might be a criminal gang of some kind of that was threatening me and was planning to force me to do something for them.

I freaked out, and eventually I ended up leaving my apartment and knocking on the door of one of my neighbours and asking them for help. I am not sure how I described the situation exactly however I was definitely very emotional and concerned. My neighbour contacted the building employees using their phone, and then the building employees then contacted the police. My neighbour gave me updates and told me that the police were on the way. When the police arrived, at first they listened to what I had to say. However, at some point the conversation changed and the police started telling me that they felt I was exhibiting symptoms of a mental illness and that I had to visit a psychiatric facility. I described this experience in detail in a journal entry, which also contains photos of some of the YouTube thumbnails that I saw.

The experience of being brought to the psychiatric facility after trying to contact the police was traumatic. I did not in any way understand why it made sense to bring me there. It started to seem possible that I had indeed been threatened by a criminal gang using YouTube videos, and the police were actually part of the gang. It seemed like maybe bringing me to the psychiatric facility might have been a method the gang was using to show how much power they had. For a long time after this, I was afraid of the police. There were times that it seemed to me like the police might be following me. A few times I ran from them and hid in nearby parks.

I found this experience especially disturbing because I had recently started my job at Groq, and I knew that a bunch of senior management at Groq used to work at Google, which owns YouTube. I seriously started to think it was possible that the executives at Google might be part of some kind of criminal gang that was secretly running the world, and this method of individually targeting individual YouTube users might be a method they used to threaten people into doing what they wanted. It definitely seemed clear to me that if Google did do this, and people complained about it, that people were not likely to believe them.

I ended up quitting my job at Groq. I was afraid of them.

After I left Intel and started my job at Groq, I received a connection request on LinkedIn from someone who had recently quit their job at Intel and had started working at a company called RapidSilicon. RapidSilicon was a startup that was going to directly compete with Intel by selling FPGAs. Both myself and the person who added me on LinkedIn previously worked for the Intel Programmable Solutions Group (PSG), which sold FPGAs. PSG was formed when Intel acquired Altera in 2015, and has been a separate company known as Altera ever since Intel made it independent again in 2025.

In November 2021, after believing that my computer had been hacked and having the police bring me to a psychiatric facility, I felt like I did not trust the people I knew. I felt that people were acting strange, and it bothered me that what I had observed on the computer had not been explained at all. In addition, I did not trust the people at work. I was worried I had done things in the past to cause them to dislike me, and I was afraid someone was going to try to do something to harm my reputation. It seemed like it might be a good idea to start over on a new team, where I would try harder to avoid doing things that would cause people to dislike me.

I applied for jobs at multiple companies, one of which was RapidSilicon. It was much more stressful than the previous time I had applied for jobs, while I was still working at Intel. It was intimidating to consider working for a company where I did not know anyone. It was also a little bit sad, because I had actually been enthusiastic about working at Groq. I could tell that AI was going to be important in the future and it seemed like they had technically interesting work that needed to be done.

After I spoke to the people at RapidSilicon they gave me a job offer and I decided to accept it. RapidSilicon seemed like a safe bet because the job I was going to do was extremely similar to a job I had done while I still worked at Intel, and so I was confident that I would be able to do it. I was going to be responsible for their timing analysis software, which was going to be built by putting together existing open source software and making improvements. My first task was going to be to modify the placement and routing engine that is part of VPR so that it could interface with OpenSTA, rather than using the built-in timing analyzer that is part of VPR.

I interviewed and accepted the RapidSilicon offer by December 2021, however I did not start working there until I had finished working at Groq for one year. I have read on the Internet that it looks bad on your resume to have worked for less than a year at a company, and so it seemed like I should probably follow the standard advice. I also wanted to be able to exercise the options and buy the shares that I was supposed to get after a year, even though I technically was afraid of the people at the company. I did not want it to be the case that my former coworkers were going to make a large amount of money and I was not going to participate in what was happening in some way.

Once I started at RapidSilicon, I unfortunately realized that working there was not really going to solve my problems. I still did not really understand the YouTube videos and whether my computer had been remotely controlled. I also felt that I did not know the people at RapidSilicon very well. I was only in contact with a small number of people, as most of the employees were located in California or Pakistan.

I increasingly started to feel uncomfortable with the job itself. I was working on code that could theoretically be adapted and used to program Intel FPGAs without using the software that Intel made, and our plan was to release it as open source. If people ended up using it instead of the Intel software, that could put the team I had worked with at Intel at risk of being laid off. I started to become afraid that I was doing something that might cause even more people to dislike me.

I figured that there must be other people at the company with the same concern. Even at RapidSilicon, it seemed like some things had to be kept closed source so that the company would be able to charge money. I started to suspect that maybe the company had a subtle goal of intentionally developing the software slowly without saying they were doing so, in order to give the company time to hire people and increase in perceived value, so that it could eventually be acquired for a price similar to other FPGA companies. I was not sure if this was objectionable in some way, however working slowly was certainly the easiest thing to do in the short term while I decided what I was going to do in the long term, so that is what I did.

RapidSilicon laid me off after 10 months. I have mixed feeling about whether I think this was fair. I did not in fact end up writing very much code. However, I did genuinely make efforts to give useful presentations, send useful emails, and participate in meetings.

After I was laid off from RapidSilicon, I was not sure what I should do. I did not have any obvious options. The question of whether my computer had been remotely controlled had still not been answered, and there was nobody that I knew that I trusted. I also started to become suspicious of the motives of the people at RapidSilicon. Given that they had social connections to people at Intel, I started to wonder if they had somehow been planning to set me up to fail, in order to intentionally make me look bad. I decided to wait and give myself time to think about what to do next.

Given that I did not have a job, I had a lot of time to think. Ever since I saw the mysterious YouTube videos in 2021 and was brought to the psychiatric facility, I had been increasingly thinking about a theory that I had related to language and the brain hemispheres. I felt that I had started to notice patterns in language that made it seem like certain words and symbols might have alternate meanings that people are only aware of in one of their brain hemispheres. This YouTube video is particularly good for explaining why it seems like this could be possible. As a thought about it further, I realized that if this language existed, it would be an extremely important aspect of understanding how society functioned.

I wondered if the brain hemisphere language was something that other people already knew about and might be trying to keep secret. In fact, as I thought about it further, I realized it was actually possible for my own brain to try to keep it secret from itself. The fact that it is possible for a brain to try to keep it secret from itself seems like it might partially explain why it is not a widely-known thing that many people know about.

I had a lot of time to myself in my apartment, and so I tried to do experiments. I started to have the impression that when I looked at the clock at random times, I was finding that certain number patterns were starting to seem more likely to appear. In particular, I would very often look at the clock and see the number patterns 23, 33, or 11:11. The number 1111 was noteworthy because it had appeared mysteriously in the thumbnails of some of the YouTube videos that caused me to believe my computer was being remotely controlled. I started to wonder if what was happening was that one of my brain hemispheres was trying to communicate messages to the other brain hemisphere by keeping track of the time using some method that I was not aware of, and was causing me to look at the clock at just the right moment to see those numbers. I experimented with this by hiding all of my clocks for long periods and then pushing a key on my computer keyboard while running a script that recorded the exact time I pushed the key. I did not notice any patterns with this experiment.

I started reading the book Where Wizards Stay Up Late by Katie Hafner and Matthew Lyon, which is about the origins of the Internet. When I read the book carefully, it started to seem like the descriptions in the book of the early Internet and how it was developed could also possibly be referring to the brain hemisphere language, by analogy. If there is a subconscious language that can be used to send and receive messages only understood by one of the brain hemispheres in each person, then it seems possible for those brain hemispheres to create a network to send messages over long distances. This would work similarly to how the Internet works, except that the messages are transferred subconsciously between people, rather than between computers. I wondered if the book was intentionally written to possibly refer to this subconscious network, or if it only seemed that way because I was looking for it.

Another part of my theory related to thoughts. I wondered if there was some way for my other brain hemisphere to insert a thought into my brain hemisphere. I wondered if perhaps my other brain hemisphere might be able to influence my dreams. Maybe my other brain hemisphere could influence the things that occur in dreams. For this reason, I tried to pay attention to my dreams. I also tried to pay attention to the internal narration of my thoughts in my head, and determine if it seemed like the word choices indicated that my other brain hemisphere might be influencing the words that were chosen. At one point I remember I had some internal narration where I was thinking about something, and as part of the internal narration I used the phrase "if you want a girlfriend, stay upstairs". After some time passed, I could remember that part of the thought and then forgot the rest. The experience reminded me somewhat of what it is like when you are listening to music and stop, and then later on you find yourself playing back parts of the song in your mind, without any obvious prompting. I wondered if my other brain hemisphere had somehow done this on purpose, and I was supposed to remember this phrase.

If a lot of people knew about subconscious language, it seemed possible to me that it could be that people I personally knew already knew about this language. This made me feel even more distrustful of others. I ended up mostly staying in my apartment and avoiding talking to anyone, because I was worried that my words might have hidden meanings that I was not aware of. I felt like I could not straightforwardly explain what I was concerned about, because it seemed likely that anyone I explained it to would either think I was crazy for believing it was possible, or might actually be part of a conspiracy to keep it secret and might try to harm me.

Later in the day after writing the first version of this description, on 2026-04-08, I turned on my television to watch YouTube on my NVIDIA Shield. By chance, the recommended video had 11K views, and had been posted online 11 hours before I took the screenshot. It seems so unlikely, especially given that I had just written this description where I mentioned the number pattern 11:11. I took a photo. Maybe it is a sign we are actually living in a computer simulation. I did not alter this photo in any way aside from resizing it after taking the photo with my phone camera.

In addition to YouTube videos, I found that another way to cope with spending a lot of time without any social interaction was to watch the news. I use TekSavvy for television service, and I am able to watch CBC, CTV, CNN, Fox News, MSNBC/MS NOW, BBC, and Al Jazeera. I would often leave the news on in the background while I did other work.

I remember watching the news when Israel was attacked by Hamas on October 7. A bunch of young people were killed at a music festival. I could see that a bunch of young people inside Gaza had been trained to fly hang gliders in order to land inside Israel and kill random people. The news interviewed someone who had been hiding in a bomb shelter in Israel while Hamas members threw grenades into the shelter in order to kill them. I also remember the news interviewing a woman who described how she had been hiding in the bushes and a Hamas member saw her, and then described how she looked directly at him and he eventually just walked away and decided not to kill her.

Not long after that, Israel began attacking Hamas in Gaza. This was something that Hamas had clearly been expecting, and they had apparently been spending years and years digging tunnels. Before these events I had already felt sympathetic towards the Palestinians for a long time, after I read about Israel and Palestine when I was younger. I imagined what it would be like to grow up in Gaza, and to dig tunnels as your job. It seemed like it would be interesting as an engineering project, if it were not linked to a military use. I kind of hoped that many of the tunnels would survive the war, as I felt it might interesting to explore them as a tourist.

After Israel attacked the obvious targets in Gaza, they expanded their bombing to targets that seemed more civilian. They would describe how Hamas had command centers under the hospitals, and they created an elaborate 3D rendering showing the complex tunnel network they envisioned existed under one of the hospitals. Even if the information were accurate and the tunnels did exist under the hospitals, it did not seem justified to attack them, and yet Israel would do so anyway. Early in the war, less significant attacks, like cutting power to the hospitals, were portrayed as a big deal in the media, however over time everyone adjusted to a new reality in which those types of attacks were no longer seen as significant.

Israel started killing Al Jazeera journalists. They killed Hind Rajab, as well as the two ambulance workers that came to save her. Al Jazeera played the audio that was recorded when she cried and begged for help, told people she was scared, and then died screaming as she was killed by machine gun fire.

I was outraged. How could I be watching people clearly being murdered on the news by a government that was being supported by my society and my government, and people around me were not outraged as well? I started to have this feeling like I might be observing a historical event similar to the genocide of Jewish people that occurred during World War Two, except that this time, my country was on the side of the people that were causing the genocide to occur. I started to feel this uneasy tension with the world around me, as if interacting with the society around me might cause me to somehow be legally liable for what it was involved with doing. If I was in a situation like that of World War Two, it seemed probable that after the war was over there would probably be something similar to the Nuremberg trials. I decided that it was probably a good idea to make it really, really obvious that I was opposed to the genocide, and that I had done everything I could to avoid being liable for murder.

I started posting on LinkedIn about what was happening. However, to me this felt like it was not sufficient. To avoid liability, it seemed like it had to be the case that I had done everything possible to prevent future murders. Of course, that was very difficult to define. I also still felt reluctant to leave my apartment after previously being concerned that I might be harmed for discovering the brain hemisphere language. I therefore settled on the idea of trying to do something to notify my neighbours in my building about what was happening.

I ordered some flags online, including a Palestinian flag and a Canadian flag. I wanted to do something that would get the attention of my neighbours without being overly annoying. I decided I would leave my apartment door open with the Palestinian and Canadian flags hanging just inside my apartment, and I put a few notes in the hallway on the floor outside my door describing that innocent people were being bombed and suggesting that something should be done about it. I would also sometimes play the Al Jazeera news cast at a reasonable volume during the parts where the news anchor would describe people being killed. I did this for a few days until people complained and my landlord asked me to stop, and so I stopped.

A few weeks after I began posting on LinkedIn about Palestine, the police showed up at my apartment. They told me they had been sent to obtain me and bring me to the psychiatric facility. Apparently my family had gone to a judge with a document that indicated that they felt I had a mental illness that meant I was not able to take care of myself, and they wanted to force me to go to a psychiatric facility and speak to a psychiatrist.

I did not in any way agree that I had a mental illness. I knew I had been acting strangely recently, however I did actually have rational justifications I could give to explain my behaviour. I did not want to go with the police officers, and I tried to convince them not to take me, however I was unable to convince them. I decided I would not resist physically and so I followed them to their car and went with them to the psychiatric facility.

I was very concerned that the reason I was being taken might specifically be related to my posts on LinkedIn about Palestine. It was true that I had been acting strangely towards my family recently when I was avoiding leaving my apartment and had been doing experiments related to the theory I had about brain hemispheres. However, that had been going on for a long time. The only thing that had happened recently that seemed like it might have prompted the visit was the LinkedIn posts.

When I was with the police officers, the way I viewed the situation was that they were most likely innocent people that were not aware of the context of the situation related to Palestine, and had possibly been given false information about me. I spent a long time with the police officers in the waiting area of the psychiatric facility, and while I was there I talked to them about Palestine. I hoped that by explaining the context related to Palestine, if they had been told any false information about me, that it would make it more likely that they would suspect that they had been told false information as part of some political effort related to Israel and Palestine.

I tried to think of things I could say that might make the officers sympathize with the Palestinians. I told them that Gaza was a densely populated area with a few million people living there, so it was similar to Toronto in many ways. I told them that Israel was preventing food from entering Gaza, and so food prices were rising. I told them that the people in Gaza were becoming poor very quickly because they had to buy food. I told them that it was possible the war could spread to the west, and that I felt it was a good idea for people in Toronto to stockpile food just in case. They did not give their opinion on the topic so I am not sure what they thought about what I was saying.

After some time passed, the doctors came and brought me to another part of the psychiatric facility in which the doors all only opened from the outside, so that people could not escape. At this point, the police officers left. I then spent a long time waiting in this new waiting area. At one point while I was waiting, a nurse came and took a sample of blood from my arm using a needle.

Eventually, I was able to speak to the psychiatrist. The psychiatrist was an attractive Asian woman. One of the first things she asked was if I knew why I was in the psychiatric facility. I told her that I did not. She made some vague comments about my family being concerned. I tried to give her some background on my life situation, and I explained to her that I had been trying to find a girlfriend. I told her that I felt we should bring Palestinians to Canada, and that one reason we should do that was so that I could find a Palestinian girlfriend. I am not sure what she thought about this. She offered to prescribe me medication, and I am not sure why. I think it was anxiety medication however I cannot remember for sure. I told her that I did not want medication.

Shortly after finishing my conversation with the psychiatrist, my dad arrived. I was extremely frustrated with him. I questioned his motives and told him that I suspected that he was doing what he was doing for financial reasons, in order to access my savings. I made sure to debate the issue with him in front of the doctors, so that they could see that I was strongly disagreeing with my dad. As we were walking away from the doctors, my dad made a comment that to me made it sound like he was bragging that as an older, more frail person that he would be better at convincing people than I was. After that, my dad and I went back to my apartment, where we spoke briefly before he left and returned to Newfoundland.

Socially Isolated

At this point, I was even more sure that I wanted to avoid leaving my apartment. It seemed like regular people could be manipulated into doing really terrible things by giving them false information. I was worried that one of the reasons I was brought to the psychiatric facility was to harm my credibility, so that if my family made a false claim about me of some kind, that my family would be believed instead of me. I was worried that I might walk out of my apartment at some point and find everyone else claiming that I had already moved out and not let me back in.

Unfortunately, when I started feeling especially concerned about the brain hemisphere language and felt especially distrustful of others for various reasons in early 2023, I had cut off contact with people suddenly and had ignored messages that people had sent me. It seemed like I should explain myself to them and try to repair the relationships.

I tried to contact various people who I used to have friendly relationships with, and I was surprised to find that people seemed a lot more hostile and less forgiving than I expected. It seemed like people did not want to chat with me in general. Even though I knew I had frustrated people by ignoring their messages before, I had thought that if I gave an understandable justification for why I had done it, that they would be able to forgive me. That did not seem to be the case.

Israel-Palestine Peace Plan

I made more social media posts about Palestine and Gaza. If I could not repair my relationships with my friends and family from before, maybe I could make new friends with people who agreed with my political opinions. I also still wanted to try help the Palestinians if there was some way I was able to do so. After a few more social media posts, I had this idea that maybe what I could do was to write my own Israel-Palestine Peace Plan. The feeling I had was that the outcome of the war seemed like it was somewhat predictable. To me it seemed possible that some of the politicians involved might be intentionally addressing the problem slowly in order to increase the number of people killed. If I could write my own peace plan which correctly predicted the outcome of the war, I would be able to embarrass those politicians by showing them that I had the solution early. If the politicians involved were able to correctly predict that I would be able to do this, it seemed like it might motivate them to solve the problem quickly to avoid being embarrassed.

Once I had the idea, I created a page on my website with some ideas, and called it my Israel-Palestine Peace Plan. I tried to write the description in such a way that the words would make sense and would be likely to accurately describe the situation at the end of the war, regardless of which side won. I started sending the URL for this website to a lot of people over the Internet, particularly news agencies and representatives of governments.

Package Delivery

I started to think that it might be a good idea if I tried to maintain regular contact with the employees that work in my building in some way. If they knew me well and knew that I lived in the building, then even if the computers were hacked and my information deleted, they would probably override whatever the computer said and allow me back into my apartment if I were locked out. I sent some emails to the building employees to try to explain my situation, and I also sent them the URL for my peace plan. The building employees did not seem to enjoy my attempts at communicating with them. They sent an email to my landlord complaining that I was trying to communicate with them, and asked my landlord to deal with me. My landlord did not want to communicate with me either. The building employees quickly got into the habit of completely ignoring all emails I sent them, regardless of the topic, even if I was contacting them about legitimate building issues. It seemed like they had some kind of animosity towards me personally, and I did not understand why.

I started to have a conflict with the building employees related to packages. I had been ordering things online and having them delivered, and had been picking up the packages from the pickup area inside the building. At one point, however, there were a handful of packages that I left in the pickup area for an extended period. The building employees emailed me and told me to pick them up. I told them that in order to get the packages, I had to be confident that I would be able to return to my apartment after I obtained them. I told them that if the building employees appear to be intentionally ignoring me, that it seemed possible they might ignore me if I had a legitimate problem getting back into my apartment and needed their help to get back in. They did not reply.

I then noticed that in their email they were saying that I had packages waiting for me in two of the package compartments in the pickup area. According to the automated emails I had received from the computer, there should have been four compartments holding my packages. I sent the building employees an email asking where the missing packages were. They did not reply to that email either.

Around two months after that, I received an email from the building employees telling me that they had noticed fire safety concerns in my apartment when an employee had entered recently in order to do maintenance. They told me that my apartment would need to be inspected and that my landlord would be charged a fee. My apartment was first inspected by the building employees, who came into my apartment and inspected various things at random without talking to me and without explaining what they were looking for. After that, the building employees sent an email claiming that there was an issue that would require an inspection by the Toronto fire department. The fire department employee looked around my apartment and told me that I should move some cardboard that had accumulated. They also had a problem with my solar panel-powered computer and told me that I had to disconnect my batteries from my solar panels.

After the visit by the fire department was over, I finally was able to chat with my landlord in person. I asked them about the missing packages. My landlord told me that they actually had my packages the entire time. Apparently, the building employees had taken the packages out of the package storage area, mailed them to my landlord, and then had ignored the emails I had sent asking where the packages were. After my landlord admitted that they had the packages, they returned them to me.

I personally think that the fact that the building employees apparently delayed returning my packages to me until after the fire department inspection occurred is suspicious. If the fire department inspection had not occurred and forced me to interact with my landlord, I am not sure how I would have obtained the packages. I was not getting any responses to my emails asking where the packages were.

Sign In The Window

Even though I had obtained the missing packages, I was still uncomfortable with the fact that the building employees were not communicating with me and appeared to dislike me. I tried to think of a way I could put some pressure on them to communicate with me, without breaking any rules, and in a way that could be easily reversed. I decided to put a sign in my window, using once piece of paper per letter, with this message:

HELP
TRAPPED
PLEASE ASK
CONCIERGE
TO REPLY

My thinking when I wrote this message was that it would cause the people outside my apartment to be concerned that I might be trapped in my apartment, and speak to the concierge at the front desk to let them know that I needed assistance. I felt that it was correct to say that I was effectively trapped as a consequence of the unusual circumstances of my situation. I sent the building employees an email shortly after putting the sign up explaining what I had done, so that they would understand what was happening if people showed up at the concierge desk asking about the sign.

My landlord replied to the email and asked me to move out. I replied and told them that this would be an extremely inconvenient time for me to move out. I told them that I did not have any social contacts, and my family had just recently filled out a form to forcibly bring me to a psychiatric facility. I told them that my plan was to find employment income again and then move out when I was able to afford my own condo or house in Toronto. I told them that I had enough money saved up to pay rent for a long time.

My landlord replied and again asked me to move out. I told them that I felt that I was in an emergency situation that the building employees were contributing to by ignoring my legitimate messages. I told them that it was necessary for me to communicate with the employees in the building in order to live in the apartment, and the apartment was my legal residence. Therefore, it was necessary for the building employees to communicate with me.

My landlord then forwarded me an email they had received from the building employees, in which the building employees were telling my landlord that the sign must be removed, and that they were going to contact the lawyers for the Condo Corporation. The building employees told my landlord that my landlord would be responsible for paying any lawyer fees that might result. My landlord then told me that the issue was going to be escalated to the Board of Directors. My landlord told me that I would be responsible for paying any lawyer fees. I replied and told my landlord that I looked forward to speaking to a representative from the Board. I told them that I did not intend to pay their lawyer fees.

Three days after this email exchange, a police officer showed up at my apartment. The officer told me that my landlord had called the police and asked them to come check on my mental health. I told the officer that my parents had filled out a form to force me to visit a psychiatric facility, and that I felt they were doing it because of my LinkedIn posts about Palestine. I showed them some of the posts on my phone. I told them that I was having a disagreement with the building employees that started when I put a Palestinian flag on the outside of the door of the apartment. I told them that I was having a problem with the building employees interfering with my packages. The officer did not seem convinced that I had a legitimate reason to be concerned.

The officer knew about the sign and asked me to remove it from the window. I told the officer that I felt I was in an emergency situation and that the sign was one of my only methods of communicating with people who might be able to help. I told the officer that I would remove it as soon as the building employees were communicating with me normally. The officer told me they would speak to the building employees and ask them to speak to me, and he left.

Legal Fees

A few weeks later, I received an email from a lawyer working for the condo corporation. The email quoted a portion of the rules of the corporation that my landlord agreed to when they purchased the condo. The rules stated that condo owners and their guests were were not allowed to create noise or nuisances which disturb the quiet enjoyment of the other units. The lawyer additionally told me that they felt my signage was likely to cause upset and psychological injury to residents that read it by misleading them into believing that I was trapped. They told me that this meant I was disturbing the comfort and quiet enjoyment of the other units.

The lawyer asked me to remove the sign. They told me that if I did not remove the sign, that they would be seeking compensation for all legal fees and other costs incurred in dealing with this matter pursuant to the governing documents. They told me that the fees typically ranged from $5,000 to $50,000 and up. The lawyer told me that the corporation would be looking to both myself and the unit owner for indemnification of its legal fees.

I replied to the lawyer and thanked them for their message. I explained my point of view. I explained that I felt that the building employees were legally required to communicate with me. I told them that I was concerned that the building employees might partially be responding negatively to the Palestinian flag that I had put on my apartment door. I told the lawyer that I was concerned that the employees might have strong opinions on the issue, and therefore might be punishing me for political reasons.

The lawyer replied and told me they were not aware of the issue related to the Palestinian flag. They told me that political topics are not related to the building, and that none of the employees would communicate with me on the matter. The lawyer told me that I was not trapped, and that I was inciting concern and panic in the community. They told me that if I did not remove the sign that they would initiate legal proceedings.

I replied to the lawyer and told them that I disagreed with their stance about avoiding discussion of political issues. I told them that the problem I was having with the building employees related to predicting their behaviour. I told them that if the building employees have strongly negative feelings about me because they disagree with my political stance, then I would have a reasonable basis to be concerned that they might do something to harm me. I told the lawyer the email address that I have been using to try to contact the building employees, and asked if I was using the correct address.

The lawyer replied and told me that I had been sending emails to the correct address. They told me I had used it frequently. They told me that my concerns that I might get locked out were not valid, because I had not been locked out in the past.

I replied to the lawyer and told them that I felt resolving the issue would require examining the emails themselves.

The lawyer replied and asked for examples of legitimate messages that the building employees had ignored.

I replied to the lawyer and told them that there had been a situation in which the building employees had mailed my packages to my landlord without telling me, and that I had spent months emailing them asking them where the packages were and they had ignored the emails. I told the lawyer that I wanted the building employees to explain why they done this. The lawyer did not reply to my email.

Dispute Resolution

A few weeks later, I received an automated email from the Condominium Authority of Ontario. The email informed me that I was being officially notified that the condo corporation had started a dispute resolution process and that I was listed as a respondent on the case. I created an account and logged into the website for the online dispute resolution process.

When I logged in, I could see that the website had an interface for sending messages to the other participants on the case. The lawyer for the condo corporation had created a message containing a Proposed Settlement Offer. The settlement offer required that my landlord and I agree that the sign on my window broke the rules of the corporation, that I remove the sign within five days, and that my landlord and I agree to pay the legal fees of the lawyer, which were estimated to be $2,000.

I replied to the message, and explained that I felt that my sign was not violating the rules. I told the lawyer that I felt it was necessary for me to put the sign in the window because I had already exhausted every other option that I could think of to communicate with the building employees. I told the lawyer that I felt it was actually the building employees that were indirectly causing the disturbance, by ignoring my messages. I told the lawyer that I did not accept their settlement offer.

The lawyer replied and told me that if I did not accept the offer then we would move to the next stage of the dispute resolution process. They pointed out that the monetary amount of legal costs in the settlement agreement offer would increase as negotiations continue.

I replied to the lawyer and proposed my own settlement agreement. My settlement offer required that the condo corporation acknowledge that the nature of living in a condo building requires that the employees communicate with the residents, that they acknowledge that as the legal resident they are required to provide me access, that they agree that I had previously sent legitimate messages and questions to the building employees that had been ignored, and that the condo corporation agrees to stop ignoring my messages. I proposed that neither party would pay the legal fees of the other. The lawyer for the condo corporation replied and rejected my proposed settlement offer.

We moved to the second stage of the dispute resolution process. The second stage of the process involved another person joining the case in order to act as a mediator. The second stage did not last very long. I repeated my argument that I was in an emergency situation partially caused by the building employees, which justified the sign. After the second stage ended without an agreement, the lawyer for the condo corporation decided not to continue to the third stage, which would have involved a tribunal.

Legal Fee Reimbursement

A month after the dispute resolution process ended without a resolution, my landlord sent me an email saying that the condo board was now trying to charge them $3,013 in legal fees for the work the lawyer did as part of the dispute resolution process. My landlord asked me to reimburse them for the legal fees.

I replied to my landlord and told them that I was pretty sure that they did not have to pay this fee. The lawyer for the condo corporation had suggested that my landlord would pay the legal fees of the lawyer as part of proposed settlement agreement, and we did not accept the settlement agreement. I told my landlord that the condo corporation had sent them an arbitrary invoice which many people could write, and that just because it sounded official did not mean they were required to pay.

A few weeks later, my landlord sent me another email and forwarded me a few invoices that the property management company for the building had sent them. The property management company claimed my landlord owed $3,856.40 in legal fees.

I told my landlord again that I was certain that they did not have to pay these fees. I offered to contact the Condominium Authority of Ontario and ask them to confirm that I was correct, that if my landlord did not accept the settlement offer agreeing to pay the legal fees, then my landlord did not have to pay them. I then contacted the CAO. I received a response from the CAO which avoided taking a stance on our specific issue, however they agreed that in general a condo corporation is only allowed to charge fees in accordance with their governing documents. They suggested that if a unit owner wanted to dispute a fee, then they could file a new case with the CAO.

Some time after this, my landlord emailed me again with another invoice. The building employees added another $321.49 to the legal fees. The invoice states that the fees are for the lawyer reviewing correspondence from their client, and for having a telephone call where they recommended a rule be passed related to signage.

I suggested to my landlord that maybe they could try to contact other unit owners in the building and see what they thought. I pointed out that the condo board is elected by the unit owners. I suggested that perhaps if multiple unit owners disagreed with a decision that they made, the condo board might be more likely to change their mind.

Social Media Posts

During the time that I was trying to resolve my issue with the building employees, I decided to try to find places online where I could communicate with people who live in my neighbourhood. I was hoping that I would be able to make friends with someone who lives in my building, so that we would have a shared interest in resolving the issue with the building employees. I found a few different Toronto Facebook groups and joined them.

The first time I posted in a Facebook group, I described that I was having difficulty communicating with the employees in my building. I received a lot of replies very quickly, and I started replying to the messages. At one point, someone asked for more details on what had initially happened to cause the building employees to start ignoring me. I explained that I had put a Palestinian flag on my apartment door and left it open and left notes in the hallway. I also included a link to my website with my Israel-Palestine Peace Plan, so they could understand my opinion on the topic. Very shortly after I posted the link to my website, I saw a notification on my phone saying that someone had replied to one of my posts and complained that it was political. After this, I was immediately banned from the Facebook group.

I started posting in other Facebook groups. Now that I had realized that speaking about Palestine was extremely sensitive, I tried to avoid overtly bringing it up. I figured that if I made normal posts that were not asking for help, so that people got to know me and at least somewhat wanted me to be there, then they would not be so quick to ban me if I started describing my situation again and mentioned Palestine.

Eventually I tried again in a different Facebook group to specifically ask for help related to the building employees. I was very careful to avoid mentioning Palestine, and so I was not banned. However, in my opinion, many of the replies seemed hostile. I created a separate page that describes the Facebook group post and my interpretation of the replies.

Gaza War Continues

The violence in Gaza continued while I was having my disagreement with the building employees. I was able to watch the news all day, every day since the war started. I made more posts about it on social media.

I started thinking about drones. The war in Ukraine had evolved into a situation where drones appeared to be the dominant military technology. It seemed like any military conflict with current technology would quickly evolve into a drone war, and so I expected the same thing to eventually happen in the conflict between Israel and its opponents in the middle east.

It occurred to me that the cost to produce drones was likely to decrease over time. It seemed to me that eventually, due to cost decreases and improvement in 3D printing, there would be a lot of people in the world with the ability to create a military-grade drone swarm. I wondered how society would be stable if such technology existed. It seemed like in the long run, we were going to need a world government with the ability to surveil everyone, so that people could be protected from these and other similar kinds of dangerous technologies.

If in the long run, we were going to need a world government, and such a world government would bring peace because it could surveil everyone, then it seemed like the way to minimize the number of people killed would be to try to cause the world government to exist as soon as possible. If widespread drone use is one of the factors that would cause a world government to be required, then it seemed like encouraging people to use drones would be one way of encouraging a world government to exist more quickly.

I thought about it some more and I came up with an idea that combined this and other ideas into a single plan. It seemed a good approach could be to encourage people to create food delivery drones. I created a LinkedIn post describing my idea.

At one point during the war, Israel and the US attacked Iran directly and bombed nuclear sites in Iran in addition to other targets. I created an Israel-Iran peace plan and posted it on LinkedIn and my website.

Before the Visit

In December 2025, I created a journal entry on my website in which I recounted the experience I had being taken to a psychiatric facility in 2021. The experience was significant for me, and I wanted other people to understand what had happened. I posted this link on social media, and I also sent it to the CBC, to see if they thought something had happened to me that was worth investigating. After I did this, a number of things happened that based on the timing seem like they could possibly be related.

One thing that happened was that 10 days after I created the journal entry and put it online, the news started reporting that Groq, the company I had briefly worked for, had been given 20 billion dollars in some kind of deal that was similar to an acquisition. In my journal entry I had mentioned that I owned Groq stock, and I even had included a photo with the Groq logo. It seemed like it could have been a coincidence, however I wondered if it was related. Maybe somehow the Groq deal had occurred at the time that it did because someone involved in the deal had read my website.

The Visit

The more significant thing that happened later, however, was that in January 2026, the police showed up at my apartment door and told me that I had no choice but to go with them to the psychiatric facility again. I wrote another journal entry about it. This time, I tried to resist going with them by not opening the door of my apartment, and telling them that I felt my rights under section 9 of the Canadian Charter of Rights and Freedoms were not being respected. They then used a battering ram to open the door, after which point I went with them without any physical resistance.

I was very concerned that I might have been taken there as a response to the post I had made on my website about my first visit. I talked about my website with the police and tried to determine if they had read it. It was difficult to tell. I also talked about my website with the employees at the psychiatric facility. They did not respond as if they had read it. At the same time, however, they made me stay there for three days without any explanation. It seems possible to me that they might have felt that my description made them look bad and were trying to intimidate me.

Conspiracy Theory

After some time passed, however, something else happened. I was taken to the psychiatric facility on 2026-01-12, and then about a month and a half later, on 2026-02-28, the US and Israel attacked Iran. When I was at the psychiatric facility, I was told that one of the reasons people believed I might have a mental illness was because I had a delusion that I was personally bringing peace to the middle east. I have a page on my website where I describe a potential peace plan for Israel and Iran, which was posted online before the war. My page describes it like a patent, and the page describes how I intended to brag about being correct after the war was over.

I admit it sounds crazy, but with the facts laid out in that way, it seems like I could have been taken to the psychiatric facility in order to cover up that I have a peace plan patent on the outcome of the Israel-Iran war. That would be terrifying if true, though I admit it seems somewhat unlikely.